|my mom was going to name me gryphon.
||[05 Jan 2005|10:03pm]
WOAH TOTALLY WEIRD. MY MOM WAS GOING TO NAME ME GRYPHON.
Your Beauty lies
in Contradiction. Controversial, unpredictable, and
never what anyone expects.
You appearance and your personality are two
opposite things. Even your
appearance sends different signals to different
people. To some you may look
innocent and sweet, to others you look mysterious
and intimidating at the same
time. No one ever knows what to expect with you.
You are a little bit of
everything all mixed together. You can be watching
the football game with the
guys one minute and the next out shopping at the
mall. You seem to be almost a
different person every time you meet someone, but
at the same time you know
exactly who you are and there is always that one
thing that makes you you. You
enjoy keeping people guessing and people love how
completely unpredictable you
That Represent You:
Fire, Water Animal: Chameleon Color:
Dark Tones, Light
Tones Song: Everything by Alanis Morriesette
Opal Mythological Creature: Gryphon,
Half-breeds Planet: Mars Hair
Color: Red Eye Color:
"Appearances can be deceiving."
Where Does Your Beauty Lie? ..::Original Pictures Are Back! Detailed Results::..
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||[20 Dec 2004|02:23am]
my mom and lech: circa 1983:
||[19 Dec 2004|08:35pm]
I used to have Robin costume pajamas. My brother had the Batman ones. And we used to run around. And pretend that we were the real thing. Ebay didn't have a picture of mine. I'm sad now.
||[18 Dec 2004|02:24pm]
Auto response from H u L a 964: I think someone should come out with ketchup and mustard slices just like slices of cheese. It would be less messy for little kids and you don't have to smack a bottle to get it out. There would be less shirt stains and no spraying mist from careless bottle usage. They would be individualy wrapped just like cheese.
imleavingatten: you are a total freak...
||[18 Dec 2004|03:24am]
woah! 3:25? i said i was going to bed a LONG time ago... i need water. i need sleep. i was dozing off about an hour ago... i could barely type. now i think i've slipped into my auto drive insomniac mode...
live and let live.
that phrase doesn't apply to this post at all...
||[18 Dec 2004|03:12am]
P.S. it's about 51 inches tall and has 36 strings...
||[18 Dec 2004|02:53am]
so there is this really expensive instrument that i want to get...eventually....i just thought i would share that...the one i want is between 2 and 4 thousand dollars.... hell i don't want a car anyway...and hopefully when i get this thing i'll be living in the city anyway... ah....amazing.....i hope....someday
|Another survey.....shouldn't i be doing something else.....too bad i can't concentrate....
||[14 Dec 2004|08:15pm]
i filled it out pat...
footwear consits of: skin
eye color: green brown whatever
hair color: ash brown
how tall do you wish you were: 5'11''
how many fingers would you need to survive: 3 on each hand. including both thumbs.
what time do you usually go to bed: between 12 a.m. and 6 a.m.
how many times a day do you lie (everyone does): um...like 2 times i guess.
to who do you lie the most: my mom
what color should the sky be: green
when in rome we shall do as the romans, when in hell we: Helians
how times a day do you check your live journal: 4 about
what is your favorite old skool video game: Ghosts and Goblins (YES! Best game!) or Punch Out
paper or plastic hats: Paper
who would you rather be other than yourself right now: Scarlett Johanssen I suppose.
at what time are you reading this: the time right after i answered the last question.
what color lipstick do you like best: pink
---who would win in a fight?---
gerard way (my chem. Romance) V.S. joe russo (pussy): um. i don't like my chemical romance.
godzilla V.S. The 1st Zoid from the Power Rangers: fuck that. godzilla. shit.
mike hagan V.S. a dancing cigarette: A DANCING CIGARETTE
the devico family V.S. The Unded Donner Party(zombie style): that's a tough one. but i must say the undead Donner Party takes the cake.
Tina Turner V.S. Oprah: Tina Turner that coked out bitch.
The Bassist from Metacognition (really hot chick) V.S. Cliff Burton (old old bassit of metalica in like 78'): She's really not that hot. so Cliff Burton.
Ralph Nader V.S. Caligula: what the hell is Caligula? Ralph Nader sucks cock. Once again he had to go and fuck everything up.
---who would best fit the title of...---
Biggest Nerd: Me
Smallest wang: I heard a story about eh...nevermind.
Biggest Drunk: PAT ha.
Best Writer: Alexa M.
Biggest Asshole: Greg
Worst Smelling Asshole: Wouldn't know. um. I guess whoever eats the worst food all the time? eh...gross...
Better than Sean O'Neil: who's sean o'neil
Most Musical: rus
Gets The Jerk Off Award: ian nugent
Jerks off too much award: don't know
Whitest Person Ever: um an albino? i don't know any...
---would you ever...---
Take a crap in public bathroom: i dunno... i've never needed to.....but if it was necessary....like if i had chronic diarhhea
dance for petty cash: hell yes
say "he who smelt it delt" when you know who "delt it": probably
kill some one if there were no laws: yes
take a bullet for some one who didnt deserve it: hell no
give money to the poor: hell no ha. just kidding.
last week: i have none
last month: getting arrested
last year: christmas
last birth day: eating
last party: getting arrested
---last time you...---
screamed: about 5 minutes ago
"whild out": what does that mean
had a good time: a few days ago i guess whenever the last musical performance was...i know i'm a dork. please don't tell me.
cried: i can't remember...
forgot a name: can't remember.
were caught topless: um.... can't remember that either.
sang along with the radio: yesterday.
rapped: can't remember
danced (risky bisness style): um don't remember that either
led someone on: probably yesterday.....or everyday......just kidding. i can't remember..
day dreamed: umm i haven't been anywhere where i've had the opportunity but i think i day dream all the time...
had to say " ima choke a bitch": a long long time ago....in a far off land....
---the 1st time you...---
stole something: when i was 5 i think. it was an accident.
thought some one of the oppisite sex didnt have cooties: when i was in 3rd grade
smoked: when i was 14
saw a midget: a while ago.
had to say " ima choke a bitch": i frigging can't remember...
sat on santas lap: i think when i was 1 or something probably.
worked: 13 or 14
heard your favorite song: 14
did the macaranyananananan: i've never heard of that.
gave up: when i dropped out of highschool.
||[14 Dec 2004|01:22pm]
By far the coolest survey I have ever completed. Thanks Tricia!
Step 1: Get your playlist together, put it on random, and play!
Step 2: Pick your favorite lines from the first 25 songs that play!
Step 3: Post and let everyone you know guess what song the lines come from!
Step 4: Cross out the songs when someone guesses correctly!
P.S: No cheating and pasting the lyrics into a search engine.
1.dripping with drool from the nerve of this sentence
thought that i could organise freedom. how scandinavian of me
3.You tell me you don't love me, well I don't love you.
4.But I don’t know The nights are cold And I remember warmth I could have sworn I wasn’t alone
5.We hear those fearful, piercing screams The kind you find on cinema screens
6.Past the footlights of the brazen silence easy In the night you cry and you want spirits to tell you Everything's alright
7.In a deep deep sleep, of the innocent I am born again.
8.Singing, drinking, clapping, moving, sleeping, laying, jumping.
9.Ain't no use a listenin' For his tired footsteps Climbin' up the stairs
10.I waited in the hallway, she went to get it, And I tried to make sense
Out of that picture of you in your wheelchair That leaned up against . . .
11.Life is a tribute to you, and so is dying. Drinking in this way, to die is what i'm trying.
12.Do I hate her? Do I know her just ot hate what she does?
Who's gonna show this stranger around?
14.The time has got me in its sway Though I'd like to ride away I will wait another day
15.All my lies are always wishes I know I would die if I could come back new
16.Cheer up, honey, I hope you can There is something wrong with me
17.And cleanliness is godliness, and god is empty just like me
18.The broadstrokes of this picture shall render it's true meaning.
You broke another mirror. You're turning into something you are not.
20.Do you know how much I love you? Cause I'm hoping some day soon You'll save me from this darkness
21.you're another coat of red in hell.
22.Someday I'd like to land - as bitter as I am - Nothing affects me anymore
23.After taking, take up giving, something big is what I'm living for
24.Her green eyes bloom goodbyes
25.She says she would love to come help but the sea would electrocute us all.
||[13 Dec 2004|03:34pm]
|| attention deficit disorderish
well a forty year old man just asked me out at the wawa.
i found out that i can't receive an incomplete for any of my classes.
i need to go get evaluated at a crazy person house at 6 p.m.
i need to get a job very soon to pay off what is going to be over 3,000 dollars in debts that i will owe to my parents.
my medicine isn't working.
i've had a headache for about 3 days now.
i need to get 4 weeks of schoolwork done by the 19th.
i also need to get the newly developed twitch that's decided to reside in my head, to go away.
|i am too bored to sleep.
||[10 Dec 2004|02:10am]
[x] The shoes you wore today: Green pointed flats that cost me 10 dollars.
[x] Your eyes: Hazel. They turn bright green when I cry.
[x] Your fears: Haunted houses, car crashes, plane crashes,......life.
[x] Your most overused phrase on aim: haha
[x] Your thoughts first waking up: I really don't want to do this show at 11 o clock in the morning...
[x] The first feature you notice in the opposite sex: eyes
[x] Your best physical feature: My eyes i suppose.
[x] Your bedtime: Usually somwhere between 10:30 and 6:00 a.m.
[x] Your most missed memory: Playing in the snow alone when I was a child, and coming in after sundown to drink hot cocoa.
[x] Pepsi or Coke: eh
[x] McDonald's or Burger King: eh
[x] Single or group dates: Group
[x] Adidas or Nike: Adidas
[x] Chocolate or vanilla: Vanilla
[x] Cappuccino or coffee: Coffee.
[x] Smoke: Sometimes.
[x] Curse: Yes.
[x] Take a shower everyday: No.
[x] Have any crushes?: No.
[x] Who are they: No one.
[x] Do you think you've been in love? I think I have...but I'm pretty sure I'm wrong.
[x] Want to go to college: I want to go away to college yes...i want to not be in community college anymore....that would be grand....
[x] Like high school: I dropped out....that says something i suppose.
[x] Want to get married: No, I don't think so.
[x] Type w/ your fingers on the right keys: normally.
[x] Believe in yourself: Occassionally
[x] Get motion sickness: No.
[x] Think you're a health freak: Nope.
[x] Get along with your parents: eh... Not too well. I manage.
[x] Like thunderstorms: Love them.
------------IN THE PAST MONTH DID / HAVE YOU--------------
[x] Gone to the mall: Yes.
[x] Eaten sushi: No
[x] Been on stage: Yes
[x] Been dumped: No
[x] Gone skating: Yes
[x] Made homemade cookies: No.
[x] Dyed your hair: No.
[x] Stolen anything: Yes.
-----------------HAVE YOU EVER------------------
[x] Flown on a plane: yes.
[x] Missed school because it was raining?: no
[x] Told a guy/girl that you liked them?: yes...god do i not want to think about ANY of them....REJECTION....let's talk about it.....cause i KNOW.
[x] Cried during a Movie?: Yes.
[x] Ever thought an animated character was hot?: Hell yes. Spike from Cowboy Bebop.
[x] Had an imaginary friend: No.
[x] Cut your hair: Yes.
[x] Had crush on a teacher?: Not a crush...
[x] Been caught "doing something": No, but could've been
[x] Been called a tease: Yes.
[x] Gotten beaten up?: No.
[x] Been in a fight: No.
[x] Shoplifted: Yes.
[x] Age you hope to be married: I really don't know.
[x] Numbers of Children: Maybe 1...
[x] Descibe your Dream Wedding: UH.....going to the justice of peace....new york city? yes.
[x] How do you want to die?: Gunshot to the head.
[x] What do you want to be when you grow up?: A broadway performer, or a musical therapist. Or a philosophy teacher but that would take too long.
[x] What country would you most like to visit?: Italy. Just for Venice.
[x] Best eye color: Green.
[x] Best hair color: Brown or red
[x] Short or long hair: Depends on the guy.
[x] Best height: 6’2"
[x] Best weight: Slim i guess.
[x] Best first date location: uhhh....wherever?
[x] Best first kiss location: outside somewhere cold.
[x] Number of Boyfriends/Girlfriends: 1
[x] Number of drugs taken illegally: 3
[x] Number of people I could trust with my life: 3
[x] Number of CDs that I own: i lost count so long ago.
[x] Number of piercing: 9
[x] Number of tattoos: None.
[x] Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper: about 5 i guess.
[x] Number of scars on my body: Thousands.
[x] Number of things in my past that I regret: not too much i suppose. some things. but not too much.
[x] Shampoo: brilliant brunette
[x] Fav Color(s): green
[x] Day/Night: night, now
[x] Summer/Winter: Summer.
[x] Lace or Satin: Lace
[x] Fave Cartoon: Family Guy, ATHF, Ren and Stimpy, Rocko's Modern Life, Home Movies.
[x] Fave Food: Bagel with cream cheese and jam.
[x] Fave Movies: Gummo, World's greatest animation, F. 9/11.
[x] Fave sport: to watch....ice hockey. to play....tennis.
[x] Right Now Wearing: my face pants, a grey sweater, a huge scarf, and a green coat.
[x] Drinking: nothing....need water...
[x] Thinking about: The fact that i need to go the fuck to sleep
[x] Listening to: The ticking of a very loud clock.
---------------IN THE LAST 24 HRS------------------
[x] Cried: Almost
[x] Worn jeans: Yes
[x] Met someone new online: No
[x] Done laundry: yes
[x] Drove a car: driven....yes
---------------DO YOU BELIEVE IN--------------
[x] Yourself: bah
[x] Your friends: not really.
[x] Santa Claus: yes.
[x] Tooth Fairy: no.
[x] Destiny/Fate: yes.
[x] Angels: yes. semi-ly kind of-ly.
[x] Ghosts: Yes.
[x] UFO's: Yes.
[x] God: not when it's capitalized like that...
------------FRIENDS AND LIFE------------------
[x] Do you ever wish you had another name?: Sometimes.
[x] Do you have a girlfriend/boyfriend?: Nope.
[x] Do you like anyone?: myself
[x] Which one of your friends acts the most like you?: none of them....i think i'm too many different people.
[x] Are you close to any family member?: my brother, lech.
[x] What's the best feeling in the world?: A fall day feeling, or an orgasm. ha.
[x] Worst Feeling?: Unrequited love. Sexual frustration.
[x] What time is it now?: 2:00 a.m.
Act your age: No, I'm told I act older.
Born on what day of the week: I think it was a Tuesday
Chore you hate: Vacumming the wooden floors.
Dad's name: Mike
Essentail make-up item: mascara
Favorite actors/actresses: Chloe Seveigny i guess? Johnny Depp.
Gold or sliver: Silver
Hometown: Way way south jersey.
Instruments you play: Some guitar which i suck at. i don't play my voice but it's an instrument that i use.
Job title: Loser
Living arrangements: Parents and brother
Mom's name: Ingeborg (rock!)
Number of socks you own: i don't know.
Overnight hospital stays: None, other than when I was first born of course.
Quote you like:
Religious affiliation: I'm agnostic for now...
Time you woke up today: 7:45
Unusual habits: none.
Vicious thing you've done: cut myself. told a person that i hoped they'd get hit by a truck and meant it. really really meant it...
Worst habit: ALCOHOLISM
X-rays you've had: teeth, chest, ankle, nose.
Your favorite season: Autumn
Zodiac sign: Leo I
|the show must go on...
||[05 Dec 2004|03:42am]
i still look like i want to punch someone in the face. that's probably because i do...
me with my stage makeup still on...including hairpiece....faux hair. hah.
what i would look like if i had my hair as long as this stupid piece is...oh and look at the giraffe neck....it's great.
so.... still currently UN-homeless. thank whatever...god...er....whatever...i'll be updating if my dad finds out about what happened...actually if my dad finds out about what happened i may be updating from the library...or someone elses computer...
||[05 Dec 2004|02:25am]
i almost let
the blood spill
onto the floor today
i almost let
myself soak in it
i almost let
my clothes sop it up
with my grandmother
right outside the door
waiting to see me
go on stage
waiting to see me
did i ever stop to think
of what it would do to my family?
did i ever care?
that's why i'm typing this.
here in my chair.
my brother's chair.
and my chair.